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Flower Power :iconpixarviolet:pixarviolet 2 0 Fashionable Fuchsia :iconpixarviolet:pixarviolet 0 0 Chinese Blossom Fan Warrior :iconpixarviolet:pixarviolet 1 0 The Water Dancer :iconpixarviolet:pixarviolet 0 0 Purple Lolli Pop Cutie :iconpixarviolet:pixarviolet 0 0 Goddess Of The World :iconpixarviolet:pixarviolet 4 0 Zenith's Best Friend :iconpixarviolet:pixarviolet 2 2 Blue Vicky :iconpixarviolet:pixarviolet 3 2 Pink Angel Warrior 2 :iconpixarviolet:pixarviolet 0 0 Pink Angel Warrior :iconpixarviolet:pixarviolet 1 0 Strawberry Flight :iconpixarviolet:pixarviolet 0 0 RedCoat Revoultionary War Character :iconpixarviolet:pixarviolet 1 0 Zenith Space Cadet Drill Team :iconpixarviolet:pixarviolet 0 0 America's Sweetheart :iconpixarviolet:pixarviolet 0 0 Tropical Summer Breeze :iconpixarviolet:pixarviolet 0 0 Summer, Honey and Daisies :iconpixarviolet:pixarviolet 1 2
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Through the Eyes of a Child :iconcelticbotan:CelticBotan 171 12 Revenger :icondleoblack:dleoblack 637 26 The one for you - Emma Watson :iconaurorawienhold:AuroraWienhold 487 19 Priestess (DVG) :icondashinvaine:dashinvaine 175 11 Dark Magician Girl :iconsakimichan:sakimichan 16,158 337 Tracer :icontheafn:TheAFN 29 3 Titanfall speed fanart :icondleoblack:dleoblack 865 41 Legend of the Cryptids - Shilkniel reg. :iconanotherwanderer:anotherwanderer 1,728 45 Mobius Final Fantasy - Meir, Christmas version :iconanotherwanderer:anotherwanderer 608 36 Scent Of Lust :iconvishstudio:vishstudio 58 4 Roselia :iconhector78:hector78 5 3 Happy holidays Chunny. :iconjaimito:jaimito 495 25 Legend of the Cryptids - Laylanne adv. :iconanotherwanderer:anotherwanderer 1,272 27 Titanic -now and then :iconlusitania25:lusitania25 37 28 Usagi Junior High 2 :iconsinnocentcosplay:SinnocentCosplay 32 10 Autumn colors :iconelenadudina:ElenaDudina 1,663 199

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Flower Power
As you can see, my blossom fighter, inspired by the character Talim, Xianghua, and Chun Li :) happy with the overall colors. 2nd pic I did. All my new drawings I posted today, I experimented with colorful sharpies..on Bristol paper. Also in this pic I tried using white charcoal to pick up on highlights..eh tried with the torso lol. Pose from Soul Calibur 2 from Talim!
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Chinese Blossom Fan Warrior
My Chinese flower warrior. Had a hard time with the bridge, used google for references for the bridge, bonsai tree, and the panda bear. I think the water could have turned out lighter. I'm happy with the overall picture.
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The Water Dancer
The Water Dancer (lilly sword fighter)! Poses are from Chun Li, Ling Xiayou and Soul Cailbur. My border kinda cut off, it's hard to do poses like this , hope I did ok...the background as well.
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Purple Lolli Pop Cutie
I made up this character years ago, for my Team class , as a set of characters I had to design. So I re drew her, changed her hair color to purple/blue instead of black, same for her shoes and added a lolli pop!
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  • Listening to: Metallica
  • Reading: If There Be Thorns
  • Watching: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fAFZxwuw-J4&index=
  • Playing: Candy Crush
  • Eating: Nothing Yet
  • Drinking: Nothing Yet
Well it's been four months or so. There have been some changes, ones that I'm proud of, and one I'm darn confused about. I suppose I'll talk about my Ai graduation. It went by so fast, one minute I was ordering my cap and gown, the next my day had come. Only my dad, my twin, and my other sister came, and cousin. I wish my mom could have been there! Glad I had somebody there too. I woke up early yet I was rushing...if that made any sense at all? LOL, I kept freaking out that I was going to be late, I was waiting for my cousin who was late, to get off the redline ha only to go back on it to get there. Had to ask for directions too, everybody was in line, they were all talking to their friends, I was alone. And Nick helped me with my sash cause I had trouble..and here comes the confused part, he helped me, and then deletes me off facebook.

It was a good graduation, O.o I shook McCarthy's hand, I'm surprised he did, at least with anger I'm surprised he didn't. He probably kept thinking , your lucky I passed you...D's and all. I tried so hard for him and he graded me poorly. But I suppose he does that to mostly everyone, especially to the god students who were born with greatness. I believe they are at the school. And he just loved them, never had to complain to them. He always thought I didn't storyboard my stuff out...and how could, with the time frame and high standard level to put us in? And with the people who were so darn great, he never questioned them about storyboarding, I bet you they didn't even do it for homework! Even if McCarthy wasn't proud of me, I was for standing at the platform. I got the wrong side when having my hand shaken and posing for the camera lol glad I just didn't fall or trip or lose my hat (though it kept bugging me with sliding). The whole time I thought I put it on wrong. I was also worried I put it on backwards lol. I didn't through my hat up, I wanted too almost but I was afraid I'd lose it and my tassel would be lost.  Went out to dinner at the Cheesecake Factory, had good discussions, a lot of them where theological and well , that always gets me fired up and opinionated (like I always am).

The change of Nick deleting me for no reason though, has gotten me stressed beyond relief, beyond comprehension and beyond my understanding of there of..lack of how guy's minds work. I keep telling myself I'm not to blame, I didn't do anything wrong...and I didn't. We hugged, and told him to stay in touch and he said yes, then I went to Phil's party and he said hi to me and that was that. Next thing I knew, he deletes me, then I typed to him why..he does the cowardly thing to do and blocks me .....some friend....some stay in touch. Since there I haven't been eating too well, sometimes I eat to much and sometimes nothing really at all. It's weird, though I told him I liked him and we barely hung out, it still hurts me with the deleting and blocking. It was hard to get over my first break up, and now that I tried to befriend another guy, even so much as tell him I like him. Only for him to say, I don't wanna lead you on........as if I'm not even worth that...I know that's crazy thinking. I can't explain it, but he wouldn't even give me a chance. It was so hard to even not think of my ex, and by me trying to ask Nick out, I got burned before anything ever really started...it sucks and it's just not fair. I'm almost 30 and I feel my life has already passed me by.  It took a lot of guts to even try again. I guess there is nothing I can do , from these experiences, life is just telling me to A, can't trust guys for the deep potential they have for loving someone, and B, to have my guard up.

I'm told I'm this great girl, I'm a great friend....if so, why all the deleting? Why are the lies? Why do guys have all the power , why are people who do the breaking up with, use their powers to defeat and hurt the powerless victims who are just as innocent? Is there no justice of the heart? To Serve and Protect?....No....? well there should be! It's like , I try my best with everything but even that just makes things worse, by trying to optimistic. I've never been the super depressed, but..I find myself when it comes to guys and the breaking up, I turn into a vegetable. A sad lonely one, who needs affection and love just like everybody else. Is being and love and giving me love that hard to ask for? Seriously, if I'm this nice girl..then all I have to say is what the fuck? (I never swear, so it takes someone to piss me off to talk with profanity)!!!! I then tend to think things I normally don't and normally wouldn't do..like hurting myself or suicide...and that was never me, sometimes I snap out of it. But when it's a big sadness, sometimes I don't bounce back as quickly..that is how I am I guess. I don't know if I'll bounce back from this, especially seeing happy couples. Lately that alone has been making my eyes flare with fire!!! I end up despising happy couples, happy couples with perfect lives..despite people telling me they have bad lives too, or not so perfect lives. Well, the experiences I've had, they seem far more perfect than I. When I watch romantic movies, I'm happy to see the couples, it's hard not to get wrapped up in that. It's weird, how in movies , I tend to want what I can't have or don't have..and yet people would say , in the movies that's far more perfect than the lives of couples in reality, but I'm not so sure that is so...sometimes I feel crazy, I feel crazy because guys will say I'm crazy cause I text a lot or seem sad and pathetic "damsel in distress"..as if I wasn't provoked in the first place..as if I just decided to be depressed for no reason and I'm bringing them down in the first place.

Not sure why Nick did this, but like most guys who do this to me and who don't care, their actions have severer consequences to my feelings and heart and mind. They don't think their words will hurt me, and they couldn't be more wrong ...more dead wrong. Why don't they care? Well that's beyond me, why they decide not to care or even cry and be sensisive..be more human that I know they can be? I guess that's all I can say, what else can I say that I haven't said, I'm hurt, mad, confused, isolated, alienated, and well..damn sick of it all. I'm too trusting, and too nice, and what's that saying? Nice guys finish last. Is that true? Sometimes I think it is, it's like I try to be me and for guys that don't work, I try to be something they will like me to be and I turn to be obsessive. So I guess I can't win. It's amazing what kind of powerful effect guys can have on a woman, good and bad. I wonder if any guys feel the way I do with this stuff?

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Tammie
Artist | Student | Traditional Art
United States
Current Residence: MA
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Favourite genre of music: Country/Folk, Anime music, Pop, 80'os and 90'os music, some Jazz and music scores from mov
Favourite photographer: Don't Have One
Favourite style of art: Drawing and Digital / Graphic Arts
Operating System: N/A
MP3 player of choice: Ipod
Shell of choice: Purple
Wallpaper of choice: www.jimwarren.com/site/index.p…
Skin of choice: doesn't matter
Favourite cartoon character: Ryo from Princess Nine, W.I.T.C.H. , Sailormoon and Cardcaptor Sakura
Personal Quote: "A Life In Fear Is A Life Half Lived"
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Unam-et-solum Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2016   General Artist
Thanks again for the watch :) Keep up the great drawings, too!
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Honey23Poppy23 Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fave on my Coraline :)
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pixarviolet Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2016  Student Traditional Artist
Your welcome, it was one of the best cosplays I seen for her! 
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Honey23Poppy23 Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
:happybounce: 
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lusitania25 Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2016
Happy birthday!  Dance! Party 
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lusitania25 Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2016
Happy birthday!  Dance! Party 
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priteeboy Featured By Owner May 28, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thankyou very much for the favourites, and for watching me as well!

greatly appreciated :woohoo:
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Rpriet1 Featured By Owner May 26, 2015  Professional Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fav and the nice comments on my artworks :)
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pixarviolet Featured By Owner May 27, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
Your welcome, they are really nice. I watched you so I hope to see more great art in the future.
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SarembaArt Featured By Owner May 20, 2015   General Artist
Hi emoticon 
Thanks for the +fav!
Greetings Pixel Rose ,
MS
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